Clarity

This past weekend, I was able to reconnect with a very dear friend. It's funny how little things get in the way and build up to create this wall that seems impossible to get over. But, once you are able to face that wall, see the cracks, and break thru, how much clearer things become. The sense of joy that came over me after we finished talking was truely something only God could have provided. A weight was lifted from my shoulders and my heart was happy. It makes me think about how we connect with God. When we let little things in life get in the way, whether it be pride, stubbornness, the thought that we can take care of it ourselves, severely hurts God. I think about how many times I let selfish Kelly get in the way of my relationship with Christ and how many times I've hurt him in the past. The sense of sheer JOY that I had when my friend and I cleared things up was only God give. How much more JOY does Christ have when we re-connect with him?

random side note: This verse REALLY spoke to me and came to me this weekend at the PERFECT time. God is AMAZING and tells us exactly the right thing at exactly the right time

"Why are you in despair, O my soul?
Hope in God"
Psalm 42:5

Preparations

Today I had lunch with a good friend and we were talking about missions. He asked me how I was preparing for my trip. My first thought was towards all the loose ends I had to tie up till going: car insurance, health insurance, phone bill, leave of absense at work, banking situations, etc. I started to explain that, but then he stopped me to ask me about my spiritual preparations. It's funny that I am about to embark on a spiritual adventure, but my first thought is towards the physical, not the spiritual. How many times when we are with God do we automatically think about our physical state, not spiritual state? Silly Kelly and thinking that only the physical are the only preparations that need to be done. My prayer as I prepare to go abroad is that God prepares my heart, my mind and my focus on to things that He wants, and realize that He has everything under control.

random side note, God in His infinate way of having everything under control allowed me to use my tax refund to take care of my car insurance and health insurance while being away so I no longer have to worry about where that money is coming from!